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*I started my diet on May 4th, 2011 at 292 lbs.

I'll start off with some basic guidelines for following me along on my weight loss journey.
1. The title of each individual blog will be my current weight.

2. I have no censor. Losing weight is mentally hard and physically hard and I will explicitly describe both. (Kind of like a pregnant woman talking about her mood swings and hemorrhoids.) That being said, or typed, are you ready? Then, by all means, keep reading.

3. I will list everything that I have eaten in between blogs and what I am eating at the very moment of blogging. ( I currently have no food in my grubby little hands.)

4. This blog may seem negative or insensitive to you but it is not. There is nothing wrong with wanting to lose weight or being ashamed of being overweight. Everyone is different and everyone appreciates themselves for different reasons. I appreciate myself because I am smart and I have a pretty face. My belly can go.

5. I will have typos. Please, feel free to correct because I am smart but I don't know everything.

                                        The rules portion is over.

Are you wondering why I am blogging about this since I am so ashamed of myself?

Maybe it is for support; maybe it is for accountability. If people finally know that I'm fat then maybe I'll do something about it. I've always been overweight. I wasn't just the typical chubby kid; I was a fat kid and now I'm a fat adult. I think it has really stopped me from doing a lot of things in my life, and no, I don't mean not being able to ride certain roller coasters (although this has happened before). I have a full time job at a daycare and I am a teacher in the two year old room. It is hard enough to keep up with two year old, let alone carrying around an extra 150lbs. I also work part time as a server. Okay, I don't want to overwhelm my readers with the first blog.

Physically it really sucks being fat. My knees grind. My feet hurt and they swell. I'm not sure where my elbows went. And I haven't seen my ankles in years.

If you know me then you know that I like to shop. Shopping is frustrating when I'm limited to the tiny corner section at certain stores and even limited to certain stores. Believe it or not, my body type (which is short also: 5 foot 2) does not look good in everything. I want to look good in anything.

I am doing this weightloss program with a doctors support and advice. 5 serving of veggies and 3 servings of fruit a DAY. I was lucky to eat a vegetable a week and now 5 servings a day?! It really messes with your system and if you take this approach I recommend baby powder. No more caffeine which I have done surprisingly well with. I have had one cup of iced coffee, unsweetened, since I started this venture two weeks ago. ( Go ahead and judge me, it was finals week!) My cholesterol and thyroid are normal and no Diabetes. I am very lucky for those blessings considering the way I used to eat.

Some of the changes that I've made so far to my life style are: wheat instead of white, vegetable or two with every meal except breakfast (that's when I have my fruit), turkey meat instead of beef, no more candy or chocolate, no more fast food, no more sodas or juices or coffee and instead of these drinks I carry around a water bottle. I exercise. Nothing too serious but Just Dance 2 and a walk around the neighborhood. I will be starting with a personal trainer next week 3 days a week for 45 minutes AT 7 AM!

One thing to remember when dieting is that it is okay to make exceptions; people are not perfect and their diets won't be either. Just don't get carried away with the exceptions.

If you have any questions, please ask. I will be happy to answer any of them and I will fill you in more on how I've gotten up to 292lbs and how I'm finally sticking to my diet.

-Tristin